A week ago, I just happened to get a glimpse at the IM window of my colleague(and college batchmate), it was about someone's marriage. Something made me feel that its about her, but I had no conclusive proof and I told my ever optimist heart that it isn't her. Moreover, he didnt bother to tell me about it, and why should he, I was never a part of their group or anyone's group for that matter. But then no one was telling me, maybe they were nice enough to not to let me know...But then someone told me about it a couple of days ago, for the first few minutes I didn't feel anything but then a sudden realization came that this is happening for real.
It was always a one sided foolish feeling from my end and were never reciprocated. But like all mad lovers I was there still hoping for the unreal to happen. She had a choice and she didnt choose me. She always said I was too good for her,But then why opt for something worse than me? I was never given a chance and there she is now going to marry a guy whom she doesn't know at all but its on her own free will too. I really can't understand as to why girls opt for someone they don't know instead of the one they know...I can't do anything about it, nothing at all, its her decision...
Anyways, all I have are two choices in front of me...first, look back, feel miserable and waste my life or look ahead and move on...I think I would opt for the second option. Somethings are never meant to be, and I am not supposed have everything go my way. Maybe God has a different plan. Maybe, This end is another new beginning...maybe its not time yet...