"The Fringe Benefits of Failure, and the Importance of
Imagination" - Harvard University Commencement Address 2008 J.K.
Rowling
President Faust, members of the Harvard Corporation and the Board of Overseers, members of the faculty, proud parents, and, above all, graduates,
The first thing I would like to say is 'thank you.' Not only has
Harvard given me an extraordinary honour, but the weeks of fear
and
nausea I've experienced at the thought of giving this
commencement
address have made me lose weight. A win-win
situation! Now all I
have to do is take deep breaths, squint at
the red banners and fool
myself into believing I am at the world's
best-educated Harry Potter
convention.
Delivering a commencement address is a great responsibility; or so
I
thought until I cast my mind back to my own graduation. The
commencement speaker that day was the distinguished British
philosopher Baroness Mary Warnock. Reflecting on her speech has
helped me enormously in writing this one, because it turns out
that
I can't remember a single word she said. This liberating
discovery
enables me to proceed without any fear that I might
inadvertently
influence you to abandon promising careers in
business, law or
politics for the giddy delights of becoming a gay
wizard.
You see? If all you remember in years to come is the 'gay wizard'
joke, I've still come out ahead of Baroness Mary Warnock.
Achievable
goals: the first step towards personal improvement.
Actually, I have wracked my mind and heart for what I ought to say
to you today. I have asked myself what I wish I had known at my
own
graduation, and what important lessons I have learned in the
21
years that has expired between that day and this.
I have come up with two answers. On this wonderful day when we are
gathered together to celebrate your academic success, I have
decided
to talk to you about the benefits of failure. And as you
stand on
the threshold of what is sometimes called 'real life', I
want to
extol the crucial importance of imagination.
These might seem quixotic or paradoxical choices, but please bear
with me.
Looking back at the 21-year-old that I was at graduation, is a
slightly uncomfortable experience for the 42-year-old that she has
become. Half my lifetime ago, I was striking an uneasy balance
between the ambition I had for myself, and what those closest to
me
expected of me.
I was convinced that the only thing I wanted to do, ever, was to
write novels. However, my parents, both of whom came from
impoverished backgrounds and neither of whom had been to college,
took the view that my overactive imagination was an amusing
personal
quirk that could never pay a mortgage, or secure a
pension.
They had hoped that I would take a vocational degree; I wanted to
study English Literature. A compromise was reached that in
retrospect satisfied nobody, and I went up to study Modern
Languages. Hardly had my parents' car rounded the corner at the
end
of the road than I ditched German and scuttled off down the
Classics
corridor.
I cannot remember telling my parents that I was studying Classics;
they might well have found out for the first time on graduation
day.
Of all subjects on this planet, I think they would have been
hard
put to name one less useful than Greek mythology when it came
to
securing the keys to an executive bathroom.
I would like to make it clear, in parenthesis, that I do not blame
my parents for their point of view. There is an expiry date on
blaming your parents for steering you in the wrong direction; the
moment you are old enough to take the wheel, responsibility lies
with you. What is more, I cannot criticise my parents for hoping
that I would never experience poverty. They had been poor
themselves, and I have since been poor, and I quite agree with
them
that it is not an ennobling experience. Poverty entails fear,
and
stress, and sometimes depression; it means a thousand petty
humiliations and hardships. Climbing out of poverty by your own
efforts, that is indeed something on which to pride yourself, but
poverty itself is romanticised only by fools.
What I feared most for myself at your age was not poverty, but
failure.
At your age, in spite of a distinct lack of motivation at
university, where I had spent far too long in the coffee bar
writing
stories, and far too little time at lectures, I had a
knack for
passing examinations, and that, for years, had been the
measure of
success in my life and that of my peers.
I am not dull enough to suppose that because you are young, gifted
and well-educated, you have never known hardship or heartbreak.
Talent and intelligence never yet inoculated anyone against the
caprice of the Fates, and I do not for a moment suppose that
everyone here has enjoyed an existence of unruffled privilege and
contentment.
However, the fact that you are graduating from Harvard suggests
that
you are not very well-acquainted with failure. You might be
driven
by a fear of failure quite as much as a desire for success.
Indeed,
your conception of failure might not be too far from the
average
person's idea of success, so high have you already flown
academically.
Ultimately, we all have to decide for ourselves what constitutes
failure, but the world is quite eager to give you a set of
criteria
if you let it. So I think it fair to say that by any
conventional
measure, a mere seven years after my graduation day,
I had failed on
an epic scale. An exceptionally short-lived
marriage had imploded,
and I was jobless, a lone parent, and as
poor as it is possible to
be in modern Britain, without being
homeless. The fears my parents
had had for me, and that I had had
for myself, had both come to
pass, and by every usual standard, I
was the biggest failure I knew.
Now, I am not going to stand here and tell you that failure is fun.
That period of my life was a dark one, and I had no idea that
there
was going to be what the press has since represented as a
kind of
fairy tale resolution. I had no idea how far the tunnel
extended,
and for a long time, any light at the end of it was a
hope rather
than a reality.
So why do I talk about the benefits of failure? Simply because
failure meant a stripping away of the inessential. I stopped
pretending to myself that I was anything other than what I was,
and
began to direct all my energy into finishing the only work
that
mattered to me. Had I really succeeded at anything else, I
might
never have found the determination to succeed in the one
arena I
believed I truly belonged. I was set free, because my
greatest fear
had already been realised, and I was still alive,
and I still had a
daughter whom I adored, and I had an old
typewriter and a big idea.
And so rock bottom became the solid
foundation on which I rebuilt my
life.
You might never fail on the scale I did, but some failure in life
is
inevitable. It is impossible to live without failing at
something,
unless you live so cautiously that you might as well
not have lived
at all - in which case, you fail by default.
Failure gave me an inner security that I had never attained by
passing examinations. Failure taught me things about myself that I
could have learned no other way. I discovered that I had a strong
will, and more discipline than I had suspected; I also found out
that I had friends whose value was truly above rubies.
The knowledge that you have emerged wiser and stronger from
setbacks
means that you are, ever after, secure in your ability to
survive. You
will never truly know yourself, or the strength of
your
relationships, until both have been tested by adversity. Such
knowledge is a true gift, for all that it is painfully won, and it
has been worth more to me than any qualification I ever earned.
Given a time machine or a Time Turner, I would tell my 21-year-old
self that personal happiness lies in knowing that life is not a
check-list of acquisition or achievement. Your qualifications,
your
CV, are not your life, though you will meet many people of my
age
and older who confuse the two. Life is difficult, and
complicated,
and beyond anyone's total control, and the humility
to know that
will enable you to survive its vicissitudes.
You might think that I chose my second theme, the importance of
imagination, because of the part it played in rebuilding my life,
but that is not wholly so. Though I will defend the value of
bedtime
stories to my last gasp, I have learned to value
imagination in a
much broader sense. Imagination is not only the
uniquely human
capacity to envision that which is not, and
therefore the fount of
all invention and innovation. In its
arguably most transformative
and revelatory capacity, it is the
power that enables us to
empathise with humans whose experiences
we have never shared.
One of the greatest formative experiences of my life preceded Harry
Potter, though it informed much of what I subsequently wrote in
those books. This revelation came in the form of one of my
earliest
day jobs. Though I was sloping off to write stories
during my lunch
hours, I paid the rent in my early 20s by working
in the research
department at Amnesty International's headquarters
in London.
There in my little office I read hastily scribbled letters smuggled
out of totalitarian regimes by men and women who were risking
imprisonment to inform the outside world of what was happening to
them. I saw photographs of those who had disappeared without
trace,
sent to Amnesty by their desperate families and friends. I
read the
testimony of torture victims and saw pictures of their
injuries. I
opened handwritten, eye-witness accounts of summary
trials and
executions, of kidnappings and rapes.
Many of my co-workers were ex-political prisoners, people who had
been displaced from their homes, or fled into exile, because they
had the temerity to think independently of their government.
Visitors to our office included those who had come to give
information, or to try and find out what had happened to those
they
had been forced to leave behind.
I shall never forget the African torture victim, a young man no
older than I was at the time, who had become mentally ill after
all
he had endured in his homeland. He trembled uncontrollably as
he
spoke into a video camera about the brutality inflicted upon
him. He
was a foot taller than I was, and seemed as fragile as a
child. I
was given the job of escorting him to the Underground
Station
afterwards, and this man whose life had been shattered by
cruelty
took my hand with exquisite courtesy, and wished me future
happiness.
And as long as I live I shall remember walking along an empty
corridor and suddenly hearing, from behind a closed door, a scream
of pain and horror such as I have never heard since. The door
opened, and the researcher poked out her head and told me to run
and
make a hot drink for the young man sitting with her. She had
just
given him the news that in retaliation for his own
outspokenness
against his country's regime, his mother had been
seized and
executed.
Every day of my working week in my early 20s I was reminded how
incredibly fortunate I was, to live in a country with a
democratically elected government, where legal representation and
a
public trial were the rights of everyone.
Every day, I saw more evidence about the evils humankind will
inflict on their fellow humans, to gain or maintain power. I began
to have nightmares, literal nightmares, about some of the things I
saw, heard and read.
And yet I also learned more about human goodness at Amnesty
International than I had ever known before.
Amnesty mobilises thousands of people who have never been tortured
or imprisoned for their beliefs to act on behalf of those who
have.
The power of human empathy, leading to collective action,
saves
lives, and frees prisoners. Ordinary people, whose personal
well-
being and security are assured, join together in huge numbers
to
save people they do not know, and will never meet. My small
participation in that process was one of the most humbling and
inspiring experiences of my life.
Unlike any other creature on this planet, humans can learn and
understand, without having experienced. They can think themselves
into other people's minds, imagine themselves into other people's
places.
Of course, this is a power, like my brand of fictional magic, that
is morally neutral. One might use such an ability to manipulate,
or
control, just as much as to understand or sympathise.
And many prefer not to exercise their imaginations at all. They
choose to remain comfortably within the bounds of their own
experience, never troubling to wonder how it would feel to have
been
born other than they are. They can refuse to hear screams or
to peer
inside cages; they can close their minds and hearts to any
suffering
that does not touch them personally; they can refuse to
know.
I might be tempted to envy people who can live that way, except
that
I do not think they have any fewer nightmares than I do.
Choosing to
live in narrow spaces can lead to a form of mental
agoraphobia, and
that brings its own terrors. I think the wilfully
unimaginative see
more monsters. They are often more afraid.
What is more, those who choose not to empathise may enable real
monsters. For without ever committing an act of outright evil
ourselves, we collude with it, through our own apathy.
One of the many things I learned at the end of that Classics
corridor down which I ventured at the age of 18, in search of
something I could not then define, was this, written by the Greek
author Plutarch: What we achieve inwardly will change outer
reality.
That is an astonishing statement and yet proven a thousand times
every day of our lives. It expresses, in part, our inescapable
connection with the outside world, the fact that we touch other
people's lives simply by existing.
But how much more are you, Harvard graduates of 2008, likely to
touch other people's lives? Your intelligence, your capacity for
hard work, the education you have earned and received, give you
unique status, and unique responsibilities. Even your nationality
sets you apart. The great majority of you belong to the world's
only
remaining superpower. The way you vote, the way you live, the
way
you protest, the pressure you bring to bear on your
government, has
an impact way beyond your borders. That is your
privilege, and your
burden.
If you choose to use your status and influence to raise your voice
on behalf of those who have no voice; if you choose to identify
not
only with the powerful, but with the powerless; if you retain
the
ability to imagine yourself into the lives of those who do not
have
your advantages, then it will not only be your proud families
who
celebrate your existence, but thousands and millions of people
whose
reality you have helped transform for the better. We do not
need
magic to change the world, we carry all the power we need
inside
ourselves already: we have the power to imagine better.
I am nearly finished. I have one last hope for you, which is
something that I already had at 21. The friends with whom I sat on
graduation day have been my friends for life. They are my
children's
godparents, the people to whom I've been able to turn
in times of
trouble, friends who have been kind enough not to sue
me when I've
used their names for Death Eaters. At our graduation
we were bound
by enormous affection, by our shared experience of a
time that could
never come again, and, of course, by the knowledge
that we held
certain photographic evidence that would be
exceptionally valuable
if any of us ran for Prime Minister.
So today, I can wish you nothing better than similar friendships.
And tomorrow, I hope that even if you remember not a single word
of
mine, you remember those of Seneca, another of those old Romans
I
met when I fled down the Classics corridor, in retreat from
career
ladders, in search of ancient wisdom:
As is a tale, so is life: not how long it is, but how good it is,
is
what matters.
I wish you all very good lives.
Thank you very much.