One More Day, One More Day!!!
I got a call from a friend”Vinaya when you going to continue your Tomato wala blog”. Yea right I wanted to but things were little off way recently so wasn’t into the mood to write,but for sure I will write more about Tomato. This phase of time I am going through is much more challenging than I thought I have left with so many decisions to make. Well my Dad says I am God’s much more loved child then anybody else in my family.I don’t know why does he say this because I know that I live my own rules,may be I lie a lot,may be I do not care for the one’s who care for me.. many would agree on this.But my Dad says to me “I know you have a clean heart”. He said the same thing today “You know why you are at this point where you standing now cutting out all the odds of your life alone and still being strong and loved because I know you have a clean heart and you are God’s most loved child”. Every night in my room adjacent to my Daddy’s room in ma window facing the silent expressway way with shiny stars at night, I smoke a cigarette, and I know he knows this. Somehow he does not want any confusions so he tries to put it back. In a week I have to decide on so many things. But i do not hate to make decisions because I make them real quick.With God’s grace I never made a wrong decision and regret it. This time I am going to take it the same way as I used to do it. hmmm… I hate when I get calls when I’m writing blogs…. Things aren’t easy to decide. But I have too. I love my space but I believe that sometimes to be successful you have to do things that you don’t like. Feels like grown up isn’t it lol… Well everyday is being a blank day for me waking up by the bright light on my face every morning with Dad’s little message sticking on my mirror saying”Take care call me if you need anything,I won’t come in for lunch,Mum has asked you to call her”…with a coffee in my hand and a cigarette in other I say ,”One more day one more day”
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