I am not used to the timing on the blog. I am not used to coming in out of turn. But I have options to change, to be different and unpredictable. Ha !! This is early morning blues. Do they really exist ? Who cares !

I connect because I am. I connect because you are. I connect because I wanted to.

Many perhaps did not comprehend the O2 of last night. They could not connect with what followed in the next lines. I mentioned my yawns were doing better than my heart beats. It was just a way of saying. Yawns do not do that. What it was implying quite simply was that, I was yawning too frequently. Yawns I had read somewhere came because the body requirement of Oxygen was diminishing. Hence if I am in need of the O2, then I am sleepy ! That is about it.

Many in the EF were making panic suggestions of a walk in the park, to breathe the fresh air and so forth. No !! Its was just a way of saying I was tired and needed rest.

What followed thereafter was a description of the mind being in ‘oblivion’, a state of blurred thinking. I was writing within a state of extreme sleep deprivation and the thoughts were coming in abstract forms and construct. It was a warning that lead up to what was to follow.

The whole idea playing in the mind was basically of superior and inferior complexes and how individuals react or behave in circumstances when they maybe assumed to be riddled with such characteristics. No one is inferior. How can one possibly make that insinuation. It was a study on what if one were to be inflicted by an inferiority complex. Or of one inflicted by a superiority complex, then what could be expected of their behavior in certain circumstances.

I could find myself in the presence of a superior being. The superior being is not proclaiming that he or she is one. It is my assessment of the person and the situation by, gauging my own capability or incapability. I could self deprecate myself into thinking that my state is such. I could also be arrogant in my belief that it is not. These are not the issues. The issue is of those that continuously want to imply and send out signals that they are always right by their own belief that they are superior.

I would rather the acknowledgement of the superior, come from another. I have no problems when it comes from the person himself. They need to be admired for having the confidence and the strength to accept and believe that and have the tenacity to live up to it as well. I personally as an individual have a problem in behaving in this manner. It may well be a characteristic which is not appreciated. Fine. I do not generalize on it, merely put it across as an asset I do not possess.

The EF I thought perhaps misunderstood, or in my state of sleep deprived delirium were unable to decipher where I was going. I got the impression when I went through some comments in the early hours of the morn.

The act of deliberately and constantly wanting to object, oppose, disagree with what may be the general drift of a conversation or opinion, to me seems odd. It seems to me to be wanting to be noticed, just because you are the only one that is going the wrong way up the stream. Now … why does this happen.. was what was rankling my mind. Is it a realization of a desire to be superior but not having the right acumen to fulfill it, or genuinely suffering from an inferiority complex and stepping out to cover it. There could be a situation where one could constantly, through circumstance, be in the company of or surrounded by enlightened beings, who not of their own calling, but by the calling of the world outside, be addressed as superior. Would that coerce or compel one not so enlightened, to develop a complex. Do they allow that complex to invade their existence or do they fight to overcome it. How would they fight. Would they make genuine effort to bring themselves up to the other standard and prove by act deed or example, or would they assume and pretend their acumen to be superior by continuously criticizing or ridiculing the other, just so they are noticed.

Its not an end of the world debate. Some times during the late hours of the day, in contemplative solitude, the mind wanders. And sometimes as it wanders it wants to carry along with it an entire committed and loving group of EF, waiting patiently at the other end of a cyber space made exclusively for their existence.

Sometimes its good to know that we are never alone..

My toast and jam waits patiently to be noticed and devoured. I must not disappoint them…

With my love .. a mouthful .. a bit inaudible, but with all heart ..

Amitabh Bachchan