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DAY 680 Amitabh Bachchan Blog

I watched the game and India lost ! Sad and forlorn at this, but the temptation was intense and irresistible. Temptation does this to one. Many a time temptation pushes me to conduct myself in a manner that is perhaps not wanted or acceptable, but do it we must. And so we do.

Right now I am tempted to keep away from a lot of things and tempted to get involved in many. It would all seem very exciting and adventurous, but prudence rules, and we keep away. The exuberance of youth at times gets one very close to succumbing to temptation. But as you mature it takes on a different shape. Responsibility and its depth of understanding keeps one conscious of the fact that this would not be the right thing to do. There are elders to answer to, seniors to respect. What would they say in such circumstances. We need to not just look after ourselves but indeed to look after what they need and feel.

Selfishly at times we do not consider our responsibility, our compulsion to keep the elders involved. We ignore them and ignore many other aspects, eventually to lament later why we did not. May such situations never exist in our lives.

I wish to compliment all those that took a serious note of my predicament for my next film and gave such robust and rather large responses. Responses that I have from time to time honored and respected for their astute wisdom. Thank you. They all form good examples to keep with me for the future, for situations that may never occur. But if they would then I should be in a situation to, guide study and acknowledge them.

Abhishek shoots Bingo in the Holy City of Amritsar and his sister Shweta joins him to pay homage and prayer at the Harmandir Saheb. I wish I could do the same, but am unable to. Soon however I shall find the time. Or as they say in such situations, when the time comes He will call you and providence shall make the right moves and ways to permit us to do so. The Sikh blood in me beckons and I must honor it. It is rather strange, but in the last few months, my attraction and interest towards my Sikh links, attain some prominence and I feel drawn towards it. Two lockets of Guru Nanak ji, Sacche Padsha, are constant on my neck - one a gift from Guddi Behenji my cousin, daughter of my Mother’s elder sister Gobind Masi ji and the other I found as a gift to me that was lying on my desk unnoticed. Now they both adorn my neck. Raj Kanwar, one of Abhishek’s early directors had presented me with a photograph of all the Guru ji’s and they now are with me at my place of worship. I seek blessings from them each morning - ‘Sat Naam Wahe Guru’ , I recite, as I touch their images and a strange sense of fulfillment and strength consumes me.

Faith has such immense propensities. It draws one in unbelievable directions and then in one fell stroke disciplines you, in belief and in divinity. That moment of divinity remains with you forever. It never leaves you. Its umbilical cord attached to our system almost till eternity. We rely on it, seek from it strength and prosperity and fulfillment. What we seek really is in fact within us, strong and of immense magnitude. We merely need that little push to set us going. He then, in many diverse versions enters our systems, and quietly and in all modesty, begins to affect our lives and our existence.

It is therefore our faith and belief that then becomes bigger and larger than any thing else. We are ready then to take on whatever comes our way - good bad indifferent !

Good is good ! The other two perhaps bad and indifferent …

But not quite as indifferent as other occasions …

So in order that I do not propagate, what really should be an individual opinion, act, decision should be from within from your own …

Within me now, I wish to close and say good night ..

But never ever underestimate the degree of my love to all -

Amitabh Bachchan

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