Your concern for the timings I keep rings loud and clear and the anxiety expressed justified. I do try and keep within limits and on occasion make an effort to be reasonable. But my desire to be connected with EF rides higher than sleep and rest. Indeed so great is that need that had I ignored it, the hours of rest would have been disturbed and not entirely to my liking. I say this not for effect, but out of a genuine want. I feel vacant and empty when I do not. Missing a day is like a knife through the intestines – painful and distressing !

So… its PAA again this morning and have just returned to the cool climes of the vanity after a 4 hour prosthetic with the make up gang of three. It’s the hotel within the hotel, Sahara Star again and thankfully we are shooting inside so there shall be the benefit of temperature.

Wrapped at 8 PM and drove home to a waiting ‘bahu rani’. Abhishek being with me also at the shoot and finishing later. And since there was complaint of non compliance on the blog by not replying to the comments I have spent a large portion of my day in answering to as many as i could possibly manage..

Today has been a rough day. The night was stinted because of the previous morning. Not that I have any grouse against all that ; something was going wrong. But the sensibilities, once hurt, get aggressively stopped . And. A disrespect of even the slightest nature it always takes immense trouble out of the window.

Relationships take years to build and nurture and understand. Even the slightest deviation in the conduct as a code for the people concerned, results in grievous harm to it . No two people were the same or otherwise are the same, once they step into a similar brain. The practicality of all this may not be too appealing to all sections of society and for that an expression of disgust may enter the brian. But eventually all works out fine, provided your balance of attitude remains constant ; calm, tolerant and exuding good will.

There will be many exmples like when the moon gets swllowed by the sun. Adding spice or being in command they may lose some of its glory. And so on…. ignore, untill you have other. But the system is such that if someone offers money to carry one film, what does it do to the swell of respect if someone paid off its rights and wrongs etc…. according to my conjecture…

There is incoherence writ largely all over the place. I wish that they be given all possibilities of another chance tomorrow.. now is the time to be in close proximity with soft small and striking little personal pillow..

See I follow instructions till a time and place after which if you do not perform, you are out. I do not wish to go out, so I shall learn to survive within. That shall be most challenging. So blessed dreams and happenings are facing some ownership etc etc…. Perhaps on the 26th then..

Love to all

Amitabh