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My Parasitical Lover
It has been over a year since I have known him. I remember the day when he walked into my life. The transition had been so faint and smooth that I hardly noticed it until too late. He looked at me and smiled. There was vicious look on his face. He knew I had feared him like everyone and he enjoyed it. Savoured every atom of it. He knew he owned me and I couldn't fight him back.
Everyday I tried hopelessly to get away from his grip. Cut ties and break-free, but every-time he clamped on tighter and stronger. He had always been possessive about his lovers and it just clawed me. Each day that passed , he took away a part of me away from me. I had started fading and he was growing stronger and his intentions more malicious than ever.
I knew I couldn't turn around. I had been left with no choice but to be with him till the end.. I cried each day and night in anguish and despair, but he just did not care. Rather he just smiled calmly and whispered in a soft tender voice that he loved me more than ever and I made him grow stronger. He could not imagine his life without me and I couldn't imagine mine with him .
One year three months and four days , today I have decided to make a decision and end this painful relationship. I have grown feeble and weak and though I know that he will win this battle , I can not bare the pain any longer. My body cannot fight the tumor in me . My cancer may have control over my body and life but I shall not let it continue . It shall all end. I shall end it all ..... today!
Everyday I tried hopelessly to get away from his grip. Cut ties and break-free, but every-time he clamped on tighter and stronger. He had always been possessive about his lovers and it just clawed me. Each day that passed , he took away a part of me away from me. I had started fading and he was growing stronger and his intentions more malicious than ever.
I knew I couldn't turn around. I had been left with no choice but to be with him till the end.. I cried each day and night in anguish and despair, but he just did not care. Rather he just smiled calmly and whispered in a soft tender voice that he loved me more than ever and I made him grow stronger. He could not imagine his life without me and I couldn't imagine mine with him .
One year three months and four days , today I have decided to make a decision and end this painful relationship. I have grown feeble and weak and though I know that he will win this battle , I can not bare the pain any longer. My body cannot fight the tumor in me . My cancer may have control over my body and life but I shall not let it continue . It shall all end. I shall end it all ..... today!
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