What I cant Speak...

FRIENDSHIP - My Friends..

Mansi aka Isnam..Call me Mahi, Ashu, Pari, Chhutki..

All these names are given by my family & friends.. Its a endless list..Its actually the tone by which they call me that I understand that a loving voice needs me around..

I am a bubbly,fun-loving, happy-go-lucky girl & I don't plan for future..I take one day at a time..I value relationship..I treasure my friends..They are my lifeline.. I don't dream with closed eyes..I dream with eyes wide open.. I am a career oriented girl..I am not a very complex person..You might be thinking why I am writing about me.. To tell you the truth, may be I am writing it for two people in my life, who are very important to me, but they have got me all wrong.. I don't want to hurt them but their misconception about me is tearing me apart.. I don't know whether they'd read this blog or not..But I just wish that they read it..I value them & their friendship is something which has become a part of me.. Yes, they might think, that its so young, how can I give so much importance to it..! Even I don't have answer to this..But all I know is that there are certain relationships which you can't comprehend..Only your heart knows that it is something you should not let go.. I am born in an affluent family with my dad as a Doctor & mom a KV teacher.. I don't have any bro/ sis.. Probably thats the reason at times I take friendships too seriously & get hurt..However, my first impression on people is little different.. They think that I am too proudy, snooty, have big attitude, a spoilt brat.. I have seen that people often jump to draw conclusion & try to be judgemental about me without actually knowing..& later when they get to know me they confess that how wrong they were.. Its a common phenomena that that if you are good looking & successful, you are considered heartless..Often when people come across someone who looks good & may be little choosy about people in their life..they are misunderstood as snooty, proudy.. Please try to understand, try to see the heart beneath the looks.. Everyone possess heart, no matter how they look..

I get hurt, even my heart bleeds, I cry too..Just because I don't cry in front of anyone, it doesn't mean I have permanent anesthesia done on myself & don't feel the pain, don't get hurt..Probably my self-respect & my ego stops me to show it to the one who has hurt me.. It doesn't mean that you are welcome to hurt me.. Yes, I don't beg for your love in friendship, but don't forget that I am a human being too & it hurts me when I am misunderstood.. I try not to go too close to people because I am very sensitive, but despite my endeavors I end up being close to people who I consider friends.. & my heart bleeds when they misunderstand me & leave me.. I am a frank person & I love to share my day-to-day with my friends..I don't let negative wind bog me down..I am a bright person & I spread smile & happiness around.. Probably thats the reason in my office I am called "Sunshine" & I have been given a smilie batch as a souvenir from the clients in UK.. I'm blessed with wonderful friends around me & I owe all my happiness to them.. They love me a lot.. But someone who is a lovable friend to me, has called me "mean" & has not even told me why does he think so..has almost walked out on me.. I am not able to tell him that he has misunderstood me.. I am very upset because of this situation & I can't overcome my ego to pour my heart out.. I am depressed ..

Now don't get me wrong, I do love & respect him a lot but as a friend.. Thats the best & most respectable relationship I can live upto..For me, FRIENDSHIP is the best relationship in this world, its the family that I have chosen for myself.. I love all my friends & don't want to lose any of them.. I can't live without them......................

They are the world to me. They are the source of my sustenance..My words cannot express what I feel for them..

Rima, Sumit, Gaurav, Neil, Bharat, Mamta, Raghav & Varun... PLEASE Don't Ever Leave Me..Forgive me if I have done anything that has upset you ever..Bear with me till I breath my last... I LOVE YOU ALL………………