I mentally try and work out a system that when all else is over, to study the reason and cause for it. But sadly I have never been able to fathom many essentials. I have always worked. Moving from one project to the other has obviously taken care of the loneliness, but it is hard to find a subject that may interest the one of the three aspects that were being talked about when we talk of creativity…. never mind ! It was just senseless mutterings within a tired and consumed mind.

The house where we shot today for ‘BBUDDAH’, was Jitendra’s house. Now apparently sold out he lives very close to my  house at Prateeksha, in his mansion. And like most film celebrities, often invites close friends over. On the few occasions that I was invited across to his house ; the present one, he was the most perfect and generous host. It was in this very house on occasion, that little Ekta had shown her acting skills by. As a keen observer of human nature and personality, Ekta did a perfect impersonation of … would you believe it …. Anil Kapoor !

Today she stands alone and in command of an entire empire and it’s remarkable presence, built entirely by her own diligent working and her single handed tough moto for those that worked along with her.

The hours go by and my eyes drop with fatigue. I know I must complete this wonderful experiment that I initiated, but I also know that when my EF will ask me to consider, announce or denigrate I shall of course have immense reason and pleasure in doing so … But never … never ever force me into submission.

Tomorrow is Sunday and my staff at the office that manages my time and dates, has very graciously given them off to relax and generally be out of the way. They would I believe , want me to rest than be involved in serious matter discussions. Not that I have any matter of wisdom or value, but, just like that they feel like they were been beaten almost, despite the hard work you have  - to find place and environment stable and …..

So tomorrow is off and there is a sigh of relief among most in the ‘jackson house’. No work tomorrow so there shall be a period of rest and relaxation. But I think one may want to reactivate certain sport activities - just to keep those weary bones from catching rust !

This has been an insignificant piece. But truly I have been very disturbed by what happens in adjoining matter. And so hence, have taken an attitude that nothing shall affect them … a tough task, but doable !

Love to you ..

Amitabh Bachchan