We are at times victims of such thought .. today is one such day, one such moment ..

Perhaps the proceedings of the past few days and hours .. the sudden ineptitude that engulfed us unawares, has insulated us from what is expected and desired by the world. Leave me alone I scream, do not inform me of the regular, the mundane the routine .. allow and permit this without any holds .. let me drift away from the shore unaided .. to breathe and to withdraw from whatever it is I need to with draw from ..

Solitude is a blessing .. to search, to investigate within, and to discover, that all that was required was not what we were seeking but, indeed some other. It generates a freedom hitherto unknown and uncharted .. it dispels all regular responsibilities, brings in a vacuum a blankness, so essential for existence …

Why must I do what I do when it is not mine .. why must the burden of its relevance be of any bother .. why is it such a pain to alienate oneself from what we had aligned ourselves with … it was so irrelevant, so undesirable .. be ourselves, be within and be … just be …

By now you may all be of opinion that it is time for me to rest my weary bones and not indulge in inane conversation. It is but natural to do so when indeed the main artery fails to bleed. How then does one .. bleed. Injure self, inflict deliberately pain misery and injury .. no ! I should not think so ..

I think it would be best to leave it for another 24 hours … another day perhaps would bring another perspective … would it really ? Ahhh ! but that has always been the unanswered question .. best that it remain so - unanswered, undesired ..

Another day perhaps, all the thoughts that have been presented on the table shall be brought forward … some with legitimate response … most without … !! I would give the ‘without’ another chance .. another shot in the dark … who knows it might just work ..

Good night !!

Amitabh Bachchan