I think I may have inadvertently set off certain alarm bells about the health and for this I need to say just this, that my condition under the advise and scrutiny of a few experts, is not alarming. There obviously are some problems but not of a very serious nature. Rest and some basic precautions on the matter should rid me of the trouble and therefore may I ask all FmXt to be in comfort and no distress. I do of course appreciate your concern and your desire for me to look after myself and that I promise that I shall do. But do please set yourselves at rest and be calm.

As promised I went under the ‘tube’ of extreme magnetic quality and extreme noise by the early hours of the day and then called in some experts to take a look. They did not find anything too alarming. My posture is bad they say. An entire history of surgeries has left my body and its construct a bit different in its demeanor, which is why such strange pains occur.

What I did find alarming was a vivid description by the expert that came over, of an aspect of the media, which was rather shocking. He said a prominent paper approached him with a proposal where they would write a dedicated portion of the doctor’s qualities as a professional, almost in the shape of an advertisement but would not charge him for it. All they wanted for this service was 10% of his professional earnings. The modus operand being, that since they were writing glorious information about him as a doctor, he would get greater clientele, which would translate to greater money and for this they were demanding he part with some of it to the paper !!

The times they change in queer fashion !!

The gracious Barkha Dutt from NDTV was next on the list for an electronic interview. I have been an admirer of hers since long and keep telling her so. I was unhappy with myself and the way I spoke and gave my answers. The obvious pain and lack of sleep had slackened my brain and perhaps this is what was being looked upon as the cause. I was unhappy with myself for this. I felt my answers could have been better, and my explanations a little more elaborate. I wonder what she thought; but this is what I thought.

80% of her conversation was related to or strongly concentrated upon, questioning the existence of our blog and why I felt this strong aversion towards the media. In a sense she actually answered the question on her own, without any persuasive effort. Because the media always asks and is never asked it has developed a strong barrier to any kind of resistance. Jut because no one asks them questions or subjects them to the kind of scrutiny, normally associated with mortals like us, they always live in exalted isolation, protected perpetually from any kind of intrusion on a territory that they claim belongs to them.

My questioning on the blog towards them is but a small drop in a vast media ocean, yet look how desperate they become when they are put in the dock. And then they have the audacity to tell us whether we have any dislike for the likes of them and why is it that we question and write against them. Their intention of questioning us is not to genuinely ascertain what we felt on a particular issue. They look upon it as mere social climbing and add value to their model suggestions. So much for them, and so much for their strengths of fairness and equality.

Meanwhile back home that most obnoxiously constructed case of this fraud of Rs 5oo crores has reached another proportion. Without warning and with an intent to save face, the administration on receiving its complaint back from Kolkata Courts of Law stating there was no illegality in the matter, moved Court in Allahabd without informing us, or without seeking our desire for representation. This afternoon the matter was dismissed by the Honorable High Court, in our favor apparently stating that there was no basis to this case !!

I have much to say on this. But now my pain intensifies. I have to travel tomorrow to contribute in and open a diabetic center in another city. I must rest.

More later … with love

Amitabh Bachchan