The past hours twenty four in number, have been some that time and circumstance find difficult to explain. Its an adrenalin flow, one that acts like a shot of glucose intra venously, which as it enters the desired areas inside the system warms and drugs it into sublimation. It has at times acted as an immense stimulant to a lethargic and exhausted being, and at times revived the machinery that nature created and called human. All elements of medicine come from nature, from the earth from this unique universe. They are all about us. We merely need to identify them and procure them for our use. Nothing is alien to us. If then through a process of human reaction our senses can be activated to an extreme sense of elation, it must be nature playing its best role ever.

For me to be in that state of senselessness, when a connection has blurred my thinking. A thinking that perhaps never did expect such attention, then I can safely pay gratitude to all my extended family and proudly state that ‘you are family’. You have given me reason to fly, to elevate, to dream and imagine and to live in a state that defies everything that is normal.

Just look at the way you have all rallied behind this old structure in his 40th year of existence in a fraternity that gave me everything that I possess today. You have but seen or been witness to merely 60 seconds of my creativity and such is your love and passion that you have perhaps broken the record of all response since we began. Thank you and multiply that with eternity to get to a figure that would still fall short of my acknowledgement towards all.

Jasmine seemed very upset that I sent a dedicated receptive response to those that had been not too generous towards us and that those that had diligently with steadfast devotion stuck with moi, through thick and thin, were never mentioned in the praise. No Jasmine, you get me wrong.

To those that I owe my love for this connect. To those that became a part of me and to those that singlehandedly fought against all odds to remain with belief and dedication to one individual, it seems most improbable and perhaps definitely not plausible that they would in any manner be slighted, or kept away deliberately from moments that are of concern not just to me, but to the entire community. My achievement is undoubtedly, not mine alone. It belongs to you as well. My distress shall never be only with me; it shall be spread to others too. This is the way I function and wish to function. If you will believe that this is not what has been understood, then I can come up with nothing of convincing quality. I will remain yours, whether or not you remain mine.

The function last night by MAMI, the Mumbai Academy of Moving Image was impressive, sober and with sufficient dignity. The prizes and the monetary achievements during the short ceremony went along with all that was artistic and cultured. It was most heartening to see the younger generation getting acknowledged for their untiring effort in bringing about change and novel ideas. It was also most enlightening to observe the enthusiasm that they projected not just on the stage when called upon, but indeed in giving acceptance to an Achievement, which perhaps they so richly deserved. There was honor to those that came along to the festival despite its existence or reliance, on the more realistic cinema, and that was most endearing. The presentation was preceded by a most generous introduction by Shefali, ‘malkin’ and wife to Vipul Shah and Kunal Kohli and Priety did the honors. A very kind and generous audience including some very prominent makers from all over the world stood up to give a standing ovation to my presence. I did not feel deserving of it. It was embarrassing, but it ended soon and that was the high point of the evening - not the standing ovation, but the ritual on stage and the public platform.

I felt deeply the absence of the family, for none of them were able to be with me in my little hour of glory, they being out of station or at work, but I did miss their presence. Another medal another plaque found its way into my office and on the wall that houses all our recognitions. I reveled in my solitude and having already spent a major portion of my time on the blog with you earlier, turned in early, well midnight, to set off at 5 am for Lonavala and Bigg Boss 3.

The roller coaster ride continues and I know not where this train will continue and stop !!

But above all the pomp and show of achievement is the work that I do on the front for 26/11.

‘Mile sur mera tumhara’ was sung a few days back for Kailash Surendranath and his campaign for togetherness and unity. Sonu Niigam had decorated a tune for the police that commemorated those we lost during that horrific day. And finally Aadesh Srivastav had composed a universal song on peace and I joined in to lend my voice there as well. Meanwhile all along there were charity requests for money being donated to the ‘Make a Wish Foundation’ a charitable organisation that looked after the wishes of underprivedged children. I contributed and also sent a whole bunch of my books to this most lovable character on a wheelchair, who had travelled all the way from Gujarat to be on the same platform as the dignitaries.

A most morally satisfying day.

BB3 that has just concluded was most interesting. Ismail Durbar was evicted and made some very emotional departures and the Integration programme allowed me to interact with Ranbir Kapoor and Katrina Kaif for their film ‘Ajab Prem ki Gazab Kahani’ They were charming and involved and sweet. Ranbir as you all know is related to me. His cousin - Rishi Kapoor’s elder sister’s son is married to Shweta my daughter. Katrina is a modern day marvel. From a non Hindi speaking young shy and uncertain lady of ‘Boom’ she has grown and grown to become one of the most desired actresses in our fraternity.

I wished them happiness and success and have driven back to Jalsa for a meet with Balki and publicist Rahul Nanda, an incredible talent, in design campaigns to discuss PAA.

All is now well and calm … at 3:16 AM …it better be

Love to you and more … much more ..

Amitabh Bachchan