Music … music … music !! Drawing on your emotions, contemplating, thinking and transporting to another world another realm .. the connection with the supernatural … connecting to that something called creator … the finest creator … the largest and the biggest !! Pulling heart strings … invigorating you with energy … an energy that you never expected existed … filling you with all the wonders of the mind, thought and more …

Where does all this come from .. and if it comes from within, why did it not come up when asked for .. why does it need a stimulant … why get intoxicated with externals when it is all within us … if the chemicals change inside does it give us liberty, freedom, creativity, strength … why ? Why the need for that stimulant when the body and act is within the same body …

I do not indulge in intoxicants .. and have not for almost an eternity .. well almost 30 years .. ! Do I miss out on something ? They ask me often, and have been for many years - how do you relax, bring all that burden of work, stress, circumstances, situations that go out of control by the end of the day. Do you break furniture, glass, scream .. what ?? And when I give no adequate answer to them they snigger a sarcastic cynical lip curler and either go away disappointed, for not having heard what they wanted to hear .. or just look on and on and on …

They still keep looking on .. and I still disappoint them !!

Can it not be possible to draw on another performance without the cameras running and derive or arrive at similar state …? I would like to believe it is possible and does happen … problem is that many do not !! Or strongly feel it cannot .. Well ‘bully’ to you then !!

It has been a constant desire that life should be lived with a camera on us for good. One never knows when a gem shall flow out. And by the time it is recorded or preparations made for it to be recorded, it is gone and lost forever. A performance at times builds up as we encounter a situation, but attempting to recreate it by thinking about it later in formal situation … be sure it shall fail you, or at best be a good 50% away from the original !

Its either me or its the solitude of the warm welcome sun in the early hours of this paradise upon my body devoid of clothing. Or the touch and feel of water in a swimming pond. Water is our life is it not, with or without it we are not complete. Born and kept for 9 months at the time of creation in a bag full of water, fresh and bright after a bath, satisfied and fulfilled after that cool drink - there is something to it. Put the new born immediately out of its Mother’s womb into a pool of water and it shall float on its own without assistance ! We are connected !

And later we are connected with that supreme force that invents performs glorifies us. Yes it does ! And many atheists will revolt and deny. Yes there too ! Belief is not a compulsion and should never be. Nature did not bring it to us, we did. We created it, nurtured it, defended it, fought for it … and continue to do so even now.

It has been a while since I did what i did - swing on a hammock looking up to swaying palms ; the intermittent sun burning through the leaves. The hammock does not swing continuously and getting it into motion means getting off to the side and pushing again. No ! Thats not right ! Just leave it be. By the time its swing stops, another world has taken over. And that is wondrous and wild and soothing and arresting ! Its the most looked forward to habit of most species - slumber !!

And how immensely wonderful to not allow any thought to push you off this slumber, but to give liberty to pursue endlessly … without a care !! Its almost guilt ridden, this. Cannot be with it eternally. No, how on earth can we !

And so back to work .. and back to grind .. for that is what man was meant to be ..

Thank you for being with me in my thoughts , hammock and all …

Love you

Amitabh Bachchan

PS : THAT WAS BY THE BEACH IN GOA, ABOVE … VISIT TWITTER @srBACHCHAN FOR PICS OF KBC UNPLUGGED !!