“दुनिया में हर आदमी एकाकी है . किसी का स्नेह पाना बड़ा सौभाग्य है . उसका अधिकारी बनने का प्रयत्न करते रहना चाहिए - मैं तो चाहूँगा की भगवन भले ही मुझसे निराश हो पर मेरा प्रेमी न हो . जिनसे मुझे सदभावना मिली है , उनकी प्रत्याशा पूर्ण करने मे ही मैं आधा - तीहा बन गया हूँ . मैंने सदा प्रयत्न किया है की जिनको मेरी आवश्यकता हो उनको मैं सहज - सुलभ हो सकूं . पर अपने लिए सबको दुर्लभ समझूँ और उन्हें पाने को सदा - सदा साधना करता रहूँ . भगवन को पाना बड़ी साधना है , पर इंसान को पाना कम बड़ी साधना नहीं है . जो मेरे बन चके हैं , उन्हें भी मैं अनपाया ही समझता हूँ और उन्हें पाने के प्रयत्नों में ही लगा रहता हूँ - पाये को पाने का प्रयत्न - हाँ यही प्रेम है .”

“duniya may har aadmi ekaki hai . kisi ka sneh paana bada saubhagya hai . uska adhikaari banne ka prayatna karte rehna chahiye - main toh chahunga ki bhagwaan bhale hi mujhse niraash ho jaye par mera premi na ho . jinse mujhe sadbhawana mili hai, unki pratyasha purna karne may hi main aadha-teeha ban gaya hoon . maine sada prayatna kiya hai ki jinko meri aavashyakata ho unko nain sahaj-sulabh ho sakoon . par apne liye sab ko durlabh samjhoon aur unhe paane ko sada-sada saadhna karta rahoon . bhagwaan ko paana badi saadhana hai, par insaan ko paana kam badi saadhana nahi hai . jo mere ban chuke hain, unhe bhi main anpaaya hi samajhata hoon aur unhe paane ke prayatnon may laga rehta hoon - paye ko paane ka prayatna - haan yahi prem hai .”

“In this world every one is alone. To get someone’s love is a great privilege a great honor. One must always keep making an effort to be deserving of such honor - I would want that let the Almighty be disappointed with me but not the one that loves me. I have decimated myself into almost a half and a third in my desire to fulfill the anticipation of those that give me affection and care. I have always made such effort, that those that need me or desire me, I should for them, be easily accessible. But consider them scarce whom I desire and to continuously keep making, effort to get them, to acquire them to win them over. To acquire, to get close to the Almighty, requires great pious effort, but to get to and acquire an individual, a human, requires no less a pious effort. Those that have become mine, I still consider them as those I have yet to acquire or come close to and am in continuous endeavor to get them - the effort to get what I have got - yes , this is what love is !”

Yes indeed this is what love is. The love of the FmXt and my continuous effort to wanting to get what I have already got, with great pious endeavor.

How beautifully my Father’s thoughts merge into the philosophy of my association with my extended family. And how wonderfully well they describe not just the circumstance of him as an individual, as a human, but in general for it to be seen as an example perhaps for other individuals and situations as well. One may be a champion or an achiever and have received the accolades that accompany such achievement, but to continue to make effort with the belief that there is yet something to achieve, to acquire, is indeed true love.

The manager’s of Bachchan Bol, the voice blog or ‘vog’ that was initiated last month informs me that the subscribers are rapidly increasing in numbers. We now have 200,000 plus and about 150,000 as followers. Whatever that means. And they inform me that the state of Bihar has the lead in numbers followed by UP, Maharashtra and Punjab and that the controllers of UP are upset that despite the fact that I was born there, the numbers of Bihar are greater and that they are now getting down to pushing the market to be able to outdo the numbers from other states. Such a joy to learn of this sincere friendly competition. But all said, it is most humbling to find that the service is doing well and that there is a sizeable clientele building up. Inside India, the company that works on this informs me, that a large bank of consumer customers of a carrier, are waiting to be tapped, to give an exponential growth to the numbers soon. I wait anxiously for this to happen.

There are other internet facilitators that come around for unique services that may be made available to us and I am having a look at them and their feasibility. The speed with which this mode of our technical life moves is so remarkable, that to be able to keep pace and to, within that short time, be able to make capable decisions, is becoming an exercise in itself.

We use a third of our brain power in a lifetime. Modern technology is determined to change those percentages. What a waste of intelligence or work force in utilizing just a third of our potential, they would scream ! Bring it all out. We shall build the tasks for you, test you, push you. There is a lot that is unexplored and not fathomed. Get on it siree !! There is an entire universe to discover !!

The morning hour. Peaceful, fresh, invigorated - the harbinger of the finest thoughts. Wish all work schedules were designed to function just for those early morning 2-3 hours and then retire us for the day. How magical life would be.

Who was the guy that set up this 9-6 sched. And why did he think that this should be the norm for the entire world. Google this chap will ya ! Smoke ‘em out ! Get him shrinked ! Send him to rehab ! Clean him up !!

Chill Mr B … you are instigating the adrenalin rush perhaps too hastily … the entire day lies ahead … zip it !!

Hola !!

With love and affection to my EF, FmXt and those that are yet to come on board ..

Amitabh Bachchan